Every once in a while I have a dream that I go back to the first PR agency I ever worked at in the big city. I do not go back in time though. I am no longer young, I’m my current self, a married woman with a teenage son.
But, for some inexplicable reason, I drop by to say hello and they rehire me on the spot. I then accept the job and wander around the office talking with people all while having a wild internal panic attack.
I do not want this job.
I do not want to be in this city. I don’t even know how I got here. I have a wonderful peaceful life far away from all of this that I cannot wait to get back to. Then I feel bad as I think of how I’ve wasted their time. I have no plans to show up to my first day back tomorrow.
No way will I be there.
I loved that part of my life. But, it is now in the beautiful past, just a distant memory of hard work and great people and fun times.
I’m not this girl anymore.
I want to step into this picture and hug her. I want to tell her there is much to do still and you’re going to make mistakes and at times, you’ll be so tired you will want to give up. But, you can do all of the things and you will shine like crazy, and it’s going to be amazing.
Then, you will grow out of this moment.
I don’t want to ruin the surprise but just keep going. It’s going to be better than you can ever imagine. But, on your way, it’s going to be tough, even terribly painful. KEEP GOING. You are strong, and will survive it, and you won’t get to the best part if you don’t keep the faith.
Have fun along the way.
It’s not all about work. You will laugh and have adventure and feel so much love too. There will be heartbreak intertwined and that’s ok. Enjoy and learn from all of it. That’s what is going to take you to the best part of all.
Someday you’ll visit this place in a dream.
And no matter how much you love your life here, you will wake up, and be so happy to be someplace else far away from all of this. There’s more out there for you, trust me.
JUST KEEP GOING.